so turns out i have PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) don't know what it is..... well neither did i! so here is a little over view.....
        
Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a common endocrine system disorder among women of reproductive age. Women with PCOS may have enlarged ovaries that contain small collections of fluid — called follicles — located in each ovary as seen during an ultrasound exam.
Infrequent or prolonged menstrual periods, excess hair growth, acne, and obesity can all occur in women with polycystic ovary syndrome. In adolescents, infrequent or absent menstruation may raise suspicion for the condition.
The exact cause of polycystic ovary syndrome is unknown. Early diagnosis and treatment along with weight loss may reduce the risk of long-term complications, such as type 2 diabetes and heart disease

    yeah so this has been fun to try to understand... i am taking a pill that should help me with the symptoms and hopefully help me to be able to have kids....
   this has been so fucking hard for me! first off the pills KILL me i throw up all of the time!!! second off it is always on my mind am i going to be able to have kids?!?!?!
    i feel so bad for neal he is really the only one i have to talk to about this plus he has to deal with the crazy mood swings lol! i feel like this is making me depressed i feel like im in a black hole sometimes! i have no friends i have no job i am sick all of the time... is this what life is going to be for me? i just feel really lost right now...    sorry for the negative post!