boys...

Well eff! the day i find price charming seems like a joke i feel like ill never find a guy that will care as much as i do or put himself into it as much as i do! i have a hard time with dating cuz honestly I've never moved slow with it so when they guy wants to move slow i have no idea how the eff to do it im not used to this crap!! i see every one finding the perfect guy and all i can think of is what the hell is wrong with me do i do something wrong i mean seriously Ive been engaged twice... that's not ok!! i mean i do have a guy im crazy about but i don't know how to even start im a mess i mean i am so afraid of being rejected its a joke!!! i don't want to just be left for dead! im sick of being alone! i want someone to call me baby and care about how my day went and do anything to see me even if its just for an hour... i don't want to give up.. i really don't!