my favorite pics

i love these girls!!!!

ok so more about the wedding it was so great!!!i am such i lucky girl i got to look at my amazing man as i came down the aisle it was so beautiful!! i did really good i didn't cry until i hugged my mom at the end of the ceremony then we both just cried! i kept crying as i hugged my family and my best friends!! then i finally got composed and didn't cry again that day! =) it was perfect!!!! i have been looking at all the pics i got from it and i am in love with them!! the one thing that makes me sad is that i have none of my whole family cuz they didn't even bother to stay for pictures it kinda pisses me off because i stayed all the way through all of my cousins wedding/reception and they didn't bother to stay for mine and some didn't even come... oh well the people that matter were there all that matters is that i got to marry the man of my dreams and now i get to be with him for the rest of my life!!! <3

married life

omg i am married!!!! the last few weeks before the wedding it went by so fast!!!!! it was so beautiful! such an amazing day it was perfect! my bffl came into town it was so nice to see her and get to spend time with her my bridesmaids were amazing!!! i cant thank them enough for all that they did for me and neal!! best wedding party ever!!! it was such a great day and every day since then has been an adventure i love waking up to my best friend every morning! ill post pics as soon as i get them!! im so in love with my husband!!!!!

wow ok so i think we all know how much i suck at blogging!!!!! but i am getting married really soon and i am so excited i cant even stand it!!!!! we have 33 days left!!!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!!! we have been running around like crazy so this is going to be short and sweet just wanted you all to know how excited i am to marry the man of my dreams!!!! and on a side note my bffl is coming home in 27 days!!!!! ahhhhh

thankful for .....

happy thanksgiving!!!!!!!! so i do this every year i feel the need to blog about all the things i am thankful for!!

1st im going to start off with how thankful i am for neal he is so amazing we have almost been dating a year!!!! ahh so exciting and ive known him for almost five years so crazy!!!!! i love him so much and i have no idea what i would do without this amazing man by my side!!!!

2nd thing im thankful for is our beautiful baby girl sage!!! she was unexpected but she is amazing and we love her so much!!!! 

3rd im so freakin thankful for my amazing family!!!!!! all of you guys are amazing!!!!!!!!!!!  i love you all so much and look up to every single on of you!!!!!!

4th im so thankful for ashley dude i have no clue what id do without you!!!!!! you are my best friend for live!!!! you have done so much for me i could never thank you enough for all that you do!!!!!!

5th i am so thankful for neals family im so glad i am welcomed in i love you guys!!!!!

6th im thankful for all the mistakes Ive made!!! i have learned something from each and every one of them!!!! with all that Ive learned i also think they have made me what i am today!!!!

i am so thankful for my family and friends!!! i love you all so much!!!!!!

new news!!!

so this month i have gotten some news that at first was really hard to think about!! but i think it is settled with me now and now im excited!!! haha i bet your all thinking im pregnant hahaha nope no baby in my belly!!! but it does have to do with a baby!!! about a month ago one a Wednesday neal got a call from someone he used to date she said i need to talk to you so he went and talked to her and she told him that she had a kid. time added up when they were together.. so he came to my house and told me the news. At first i broke down and couldn't stop crying... i asked him where that left us and he said " sam we are still getting married you are the woman i want to spend the rest of my life with" so of course i cried more!!!! the thought kept rolling into my head of him being with someone else and the thought of him holding his baby that i didn't have a part of making.. it hurt... but after about an hour of crying i started laughing uncontrollably he asked what was so funny and i told him we could totally be on the maury show!!!! ( i've always wanted to be on that show cuz i think its really funny!!!) he then started laughing too!!! then he asked if i was mad so i told him the truth "im sad but not mad it was your past i cant be mad at something in your past"!! we both told each other how much we love each other and hugged for a long time!!! we got him in for a paternity  test and waited about two weeks for the results they came back and sure enough neal has a little girl!! we got to meet her on friday she is adorable!!!! neal and i are together in this!!! i am proud to be a stepmom and i love neal with my whole heart!!! i know we can get though this together i am so thankful for neal and i am excited for the challenges that are going to be down the road. no matter what its neal and i forever!!! i love my fiance!!! i cant wait to marry him!!! <3

sage 4 months old

so i have been looking for a new job for what feels like forever!!! the search is over!! i am now a teachers aide for a kindergarten class for a school in American Fork!!!!! im so excited!!! i think this will be a job that im great and and one that i'll love!!! what im even more excited for is that this will help me and neal be able to get to our goals faster!!! im hoping we can either move up our wedding date up or at least get an apartment and move out sooner!!!!! yay for a job!!!! im so thankful that i have a man in my life that supports me in everything i do!! i love him with all of my heart!!!!! he is my best friend and i cant wait to marry him!!!!!