new news!!!

so this month i have gotten some news that at first was really hard to think about!! but i think it is settled with me now and now im excited!!! haha i bet your all thinking im pregnant hahaha nope no baby in my belly!!! but it does have to do with a baby!!! about a month ago one a Wednesday neal got a call from someone he used to date she said i need to talk to you so he went and talked to her and she told him that she had a kid. time added up when they were together.. so he came to my house and told me the news. At first i broke down and couldn't stop crying... i asked him where that left us and he said " sam we are still getting married you are the woman i want to spend the rest of my life with" so of course i cried more!!!! the thought kept rolling into my head of him being with someone else and the thought of him holding his baby that i didn't have a part of making.. it hurt... but after about an hour of crying i started laughing uncontrollably he asked what was so funny and i told him we could totally be on the maury show!!!! ( i've always wanted to be on that show cuz i think its really funny!!!) he then started laughing too!!! then he asked if i was mad so i told him the truth "im sad but not mad it was your past i cant be mad at something in your past"!! we both told each other how much we love each other and hugged for a long time!!! we got him in for a paternity  test and waited about two weeks for the results they came back and sure enough neal has a little girl!! we got to meet her on friday she is adorable!!!! neal and i are together in this!!! i am proud to be a stepmom and i love neal with my whole heart!!! i know we can get though this together i am so thankful for neal and i am excited for the challenges that are going to be down the road. no matter what its neal and i forever!!! i love my fiance!!! i cant wait to marry him!!! <3

sage 4 months old