My PeRsOn!!!!!!! My BaBy!!!

Most people have another person that they depend on as greys anatomy says your "PERSON" well my persons name was Hayley she was black and had four legs! she has had kidney failure for about two years. she was three and a half when she had to be put to sleep. i cant get myself back into the hang of life without her! For any one who knew Hayley they instantly loved her!! she was the most lovable fun amazing dog in the world!! she could make a day that was the worst turn into the best! she was my world my first child ha ha i took her everywhere! when she was a puppy i stayed home with her all summer! i bounded with her more then I've ever bounded with any one or thing! i told her all my secrets and she never once thought anything bad about me never judged me! i was hands down her favorite!! she would mouth my hand when i walked through the door made me feel so loved!! now i walk in the door and all i feel is empty!! her last week of life i decided to move out on a whim with no where to go and no money you could see her heart breaking when i left i begged her to stay alive cuz i needed her still i balled as i drove away and saw her little brown eyes look at me and pouting on the window seal! well about four days later i got a call saying that they flushed her kidneys again and she was not doing good she was back from the vet and i knew i needed to go home and be there for her like she was always there for me! so i swallowed my pride and came home! she did not get up to see anyone so i got told as soon as i walked in the door she got up and ran over to me and welcomed me like she usually did!! i got her to eat a little too!! then the next day i was gone most the day and i came home to try to feed her a little and i got her to eat five dog treats and we all had hope that she could pull out of this if she would just eat!! that night as i tucked her in on the floor i told her how much i loved her and how important she is to me and how she has taught me so much and got me through so much in my life i told her i loved her as i started to cry and she licked my face as if to say its ok and she will be ok! i kissed her on the head and laid by her for a few minutes then got on my bed and started watching greys anatomy on my laptop around 11:30 that night she started seizing i threw my laptop off my lap and ran down  the hall way into my parents room and yelled Hayley is having a seizure!! as they ran down the hall way to my room i leaned against the wall and cried then gained composure to go and try to talk her out of it. watching her shake like that killed me inside and broke my heart!! it was the most scary thing i have ever seen!!! she seized for about five min which means she prolly would have been brain dead as mom and dad went to go throw clothes on i held her and again told her how much she has changed me and helped me and how much i love her!! and begged her to watch over me always!! my mom and dad rushed her to the vet as i walked back in the door i made it to the chair she always laid in and fell to my knees and just cried!!! i called Jordan crying hysterically!! while we were on the phone my brother Jake and his girlfriend Keisha pulled up i ran out to the front step and felt my knees get all wobbly they felt like jello Jake rushed to me and held me tight and told me it was all going to be alright as i told him the story i remember i kept saying how scary it was and that i didn't know what to do!! we sat there for about twenty minutes when mom and dad walked in and said she didn't make it we all cried!! she was and always will be my best friend i miss her every day some days are harder then others!! but i know she is in a better place! i love you hay and i always will!!

i know some of you may think I'm dumb for this blog because she was just a "DOG" but to me she was everything!!! R.I.P. Hayley may woodcox!!! mama loves and missed you!!