no job =/

ugh so I've been looking for a job so i can pay off my car and get new tires for it and possibly move out!! ahh its so frustrating cuz no where is hiring i really want a job with kids or animals or anything besides fast food but at this point im desperate maybe i could work at taco time again as much as i hated it i was a pretty awesome taco maker =P i just really want a job so i can take life head on im sick of being a bum!! i never want to be that girl that depends on my man to do everything!! i want to be able to help!! i want to start a life with Neal cuz he is my everything!! so im hoping i can find a good job soon!!! ok well that's all for now!! =)

LoVe!•!•!•!

Oh my I adore him!! I've never fell so hard for someone he is so easy to be with I really do see myself with him forever!! <3 he makes my world go round!! I love him more then anything!! We have been having some pretty deep conversations about the future lately and honestly I'm not scared or nervous about it at all!! With time it will come!! <3 for Neal I'd wait forever!! I know this is so mushy but I can't help it I love him so much and I'm so thankful for him and all that he does!! I know I'll always have a shoulder to cry on and a hand to hold!! I love you Neal thank you for making everything so much better!!! I'd follow you anywhere!! <3

ChRIStMaS!!!!!

Wow it has been so long since I've blogged!!! Sorry to all who read this! So this Christmas was amazing!!! I can't believe how fun it's been Neal loved his gifts!! Made me so happy gosh he is amazing!! He got me a huge zebra blanket!! I sleep with it every night :) Ashley got me a zebra pillow pet :O I was so excited and she got me season 1 of supernatural :D I bought myself season 6 of supernatural and sims 3 pets!!! And to top off Christmas Neal's parents even got me a gift I was thrilled!!!!! :D I really like his family they all are so nice and so fun to be around!! Speaking of family mine has been at my house all week wow that is a cozy house!! But I love it!!! Three days after Christmas my family went sledding omg it was so fun!!!!!! I totally took out a fence!!! I was laughing so hard!!! Oh the adventures I have all together it was a great Christmas!!!! :D

SuPeR rAnDoM pOsT!!!

so i had this amazing idea for a blog earlier today but i totally forgot it... sad day lol... ahhhh three more days tell my family is here for Christmas!!!! eeekk i really miss my brothers living here sometimes and now is one of them i am trying to clean the house for Christmas by myself!! ugh so much scrubbing i don't see why we clean it though we just mess it up!! lol :P oh my goodness i cant stop getting stuff for Neal it is the funnest thing ever!!! i think he will like all of them!! i don't think he knows what im getting him but im not sure lol i hope not!! =P ahhh he is so amazing last night i realized that i need to stop being so afraid of getting hurt cuz he is not a d-bag like im used to he is so easy to be myself with im absolutely crazy about him!!! so im going to let my guard down more then i already have with him!! (and that is not so hard with him he makes it so easy) he is so great and doesn't even see it!! i am so lucky to have him in my  life!! ok im sorry about all the Neal posts lately but he is always on my mind and he honestly makes me so friggin happy!! and its my blog! =P!! on other samie news i have a cold that is kicking my but!!!! i have taken airborne and drank lots of orange juice (which i hate!!) so i hope it is gone by tomorrow =) well i should be cleaning and not blogging so im going to go clean now hope all is well with erry one else! peace out girl scout!

CrIsTmAs WiTh YoU!!

Another year has passed us by
It was gone in a blink of an eye
We've got 15 bucks
Seems we're down on our luck
But who cares
You're with me tonight

This is our time now

When the fire burns out
And it's only me and you
Shimmery lights outside
They reflect your eyes
As you say "I love you too"
When the sun comes up
And the snow falls from the roof
I can smile because I spent my Christmas with you

All the shops are closed
Busy streets never felt more alone
Everyone around in this crazy-ass town
So ready to finally be home
So I'll sit by the fire
Watching re-runs and making you smile
Sharing cookies you burnt
You spilt milk on my shirt
That's okay
You're with me tonight

This is our time now
There's no need to worry 'cause

When the fire burns out
And it's only me and you
Shimmery lights outside
They reflect your eyes
As you say "I love you too"
When the sun comes up
And the snow falls from the roof
I can smile because I spent my Christmas with you

With you
Wanna be with you
With you
I wanna be with you
I wanna be with you

When the fire burns out
And it's only me an you
Shimmery lights outside
They reflect your eyes
As you say "I love you too"
When the sun comes up
And the snow falls from the roof
I can smile because I spent my
I can smile because I spent my
I can smile because I spent my Christmas with you





 I adore that song!! its by artist vs poet!! I love listening to it when Neal is around <3 i have never been so excited for Christmas!! I cant wait for my family to be around and my boyfriend to be around!! eeekkk!!! :D the past few days have been kinda rough on me i found out some news about my grandma and it made me really sad!! i didn't think it was going to hit me so hard but it really did! I'm so glad i had Neal to calm me down!!! i was fine and didn't cry when i found out but as soon as i talked to him i burst into tears!!! and when i saw him later that day it happened again!! i really do love Neal its crazy that we didn't find this sooner we have talked for almost three years he has been there for me for so much its so crazy!! <3 i am so lucky!!!

DuMb!~!~!~!~!

OK so i found something that really grinds my gears!! when your "friends" delete you off facebook!! I find this so annoying it makes me want to punch you in the head!! It really bugs me when we don't even get in a fight or anything!! I guess i could see if we got in a fight but we sure didn't so it just makes you look like an idiot!! grrr ok sorry bout that one i had to get it out!! haha

update!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhh i have a boyfriend!!! yes he was the one i was talking about in my last post his name is Neal and he is adorable and so so so sweet!!! he already means so much to me!! it blows my mind how great he is!! he can make me smile no matter what i could be crying and he would make me giggle!! I'm falling so hard and so fast!! eeeekkkk lol he has me so happy i cant even explain it!! he met my parents on Sunday and they really liked him!! i don't think they have ever really liked a guy i date ( although i did date crappy guys) but I'm thrilled they do!!! i also got to meet his parents!! ahhh i was so nervous to meet them but they are so nice!!! i think they like me!! i sure hope so!!! :D ahhhh its CHRISTMAS time!!!! I love shopping for Neal!!!! i already got him three gifts two he is going to adore!!! ahhh i wish i could just put it on here but if for some reason he reads my blog i don't want him to see what it is ha ha but ugh he is going to love it!!!!! I'm so excited!!! For the first time in ever... Ashley likes my boyfriend if that doesn't tell you he is a keeper i don't know what does!! :P i am so thankful for everything this time of year has me so happy and with Neal i am a big ball of Christmas cheer!!! =P ha ha i love him and i couldn't ask for a more amazing guy!! I'm truly such a lucky girl!!!! <3!!!